Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit.--Napoleon Hill
ADHD-I is not an easy thing for anyone to confront. (Neither is depression, or alcoholism, or obesity, or divorce, or grief, or any one of many many potential challenges in life--I definitely don't mean to imply that it's any more or less difficult than any other challenge.) However, I have found the above quote to contain truth.
I can't say that I have fully achieved what I want to achieve in my personal pursuit of organization, calendaring, and punctuality. But I can say that having ADHD-I, and trying day after day to combat its effects, has yielded many positive things in my life. Some of those things are easy to see--college degrees, awards, etc. Others are less apparent, and are more internal.
I haven't gotten to where I want to be. I feel that there is much left for me to do. However, I truly believe that by the end of my life, I will have overcome this stuff. I feel like there is this thing inside me that will not stop until I have mastered this component of my life.
It's why I get up every day desiring to work as hard as I can at the things I do.
It's why I will never stop trying to structure my life in a way that works for me--item by item, little by little, getting things under control.
It's why I write here.
It's why I will never ever stop pursuing my dreams, even the really terrifying ones, until I see them realized--even though the odds are stacked against me, and anybody who knows what having ADHD-I means might say "listen, maybe such and such is not for you..."
I refuse to accept that answer. And the above quote is, at least in part, the reason why.
Have a nice Sunday night, and Happy Valentine's day.